Non. Yo. No. Twenty plus years ago under the tutelage of a teacher with a heavy Maine accent, I studied French in high school. Despite my attempts at the time, I never really became fluent. In fact, after three years of muddling through, I was barely proficient. I could always read the language better than I could hear it and my speaking the language was always a disaster. All of this seems to be the exact opposite of what I really need in order to be able to communicate effectively. If I could just write messages to people I would be golden. After years not using the language for anything other than reading an occasional sign or grocery store label, I remember virtually none of it. That became horribly apparent this week as I began what is supposed to be "refresher" lessons with a tutor.

Sitting in my tutor's apartment I was reminded of how difficult it is for me to learn a language. My head hurt from concentrating and much to my frustration, no matter how hard I tried, the language just wasn't coming back to me. I know, or hope, it eventually will but in the mean time it is going to be a long eight months of lessons. Hopefully it will pay off in the end though and I won't be quite as much a fish out of water when we land at our next assignment. And, since everyone say immersion is the way to go, today we're headed off for a long weekend in Paris. I'm not even going to pretend that I will be able to understand what is said to me or ask the most basic question. I will be able to read most menus though and with a few gestures, a lot of smiling and some apologizing, I'll eat well and do just fine.
I could have written this post myself!! I totally understand how you feel. I too struggled with learning French (yes, I know I'm married to a French man!) My husband & I met in the States and have always spoken English - I also took HS French and 1 review year at college - but never considered myself proficient or fluent by any means. Moving to France has helped a lot, but even though I understand most of what is going on around me, I get still get tongue-tied in trying to say the right thing to my childrens' teachers, friends' parents, even to my inlaws. I often feel like a toddler who is using basic sentences and structure to say things. Immersion is the best - but it's definitely work in progress. Feel free to email me if you have questions about the French education system. Hang in there - it does get better!
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